A page out of Anuj’s Diary

5^th Oct

Had a very pleasant day…

In fact, these days, everything feels pleasant…I feel like a different person…in a different world…everything feels dreamy and enchanting…

I feel like there is someone walking with me…smiling and blushing...and then disappearing in thin air…and when I turn back, I see the same smiling face hiding behind the pillar…looking at me and hiding herself again…I feel so light and thrilled…

When I am sitting in my classes trying to concentrate, she comes from nowhere…comes near me and sits beside me…looks into my eyes lovingly…and just when I am about to say something to her, she vanishes…

When classes get over and I set back for home, the evening breeze brings her fragrance along…it begins to drizzle…I see her face light up in ecstasy…she goes out into open…spreads out her hands and faces the sky….the raindrops falling on her face slide down beautifully…her hair begins to look misty…as she dances in the rain, I feel my heart dance with her…I absent mindedly realize that I am getting wet…but I am simply lost in cherishing her simplicity…her ravishing tenderness…

Then it begins to pour down heavily…she gets completely drenched…looks so sensuous…my heart skips a beat…the cold winds make her shiver slightly…and when I move forward to give her my umbrella…she disappears…and I am left there standing alone in the rains…

On cold mornings, when I go out for a hot cup of coffee, I see her sitting in the coffee shop…the cold has made her cheeks pink…and she looks so very cute in her pink cardigan…her innocence reminds me of a baby…her angelic eyes appeal to my soul…and then the coffee man calls me and the damsel disappears again…

When I am out with my friends, she walks into the room…dressed so beautifully…looking at me…then dropping her gaze…then smiling that very charming smile of hers… (and I feel like I’ll die)…she crosses the room and stands near the window…a sparrow comes near her...and she smiles at it…I arise from my chair intrigued by the sparrow and her…and there…she vanishes yet again…

When I go to the ice cream parlor, I suddenly notice that she is enjoying her cone of chocolate ice cream…she has that naughty gleam in her eyes…she notices me looking at her…she tucks her hair behind her ear…(why does she have to look so beautiful always…sigh!!!)…when I move a step towards her, she goes off again…

When I go to the temple on Sundays, she is there…looking so sweet…in her peacock blue kurti…her head covered…bowed in front of The Lord…her hands folded…she epitomizes serenity and calmness…I stand besides her…I gaze at her for long…her eyes are closed…she looks so pure…I bow down my head and thank God for everything…when I open my eyes after a moment…she is not there (…again)… I look at God…it feels like even he is smiling at me…at my recurrent dreams…

When I listen to music, I see her swaying her head to the rhythm of music…tapping her feet gently…I smile pleasantly looking at her…she blushes…I get up and go near her…bend down on my knees…and stretch my hand towards her…she hesitates first..then slowly places her palm in mine…her face turns pink…I stand up…and take her close to me…she blushes yet again…bewitching my senses…my heart jumps up and down in sheer joy…and like magic…she disappears again…and I realize my hands are in mid-air…I tap my head smiling at myself…

In the starry nights, when I look above from my window, I wonder if she also might be looking at the stars then…when I lie down to sleep, I keep tossing and turning for hours thinking about her…

No matter where I am or what I do, I can always sense her around…she brings happiness to my life…she brings dreams to my eyes…she brings longing for my soul…she brings sweetness along…

May be this is what they call ‘LOVE’……… J