This One is To Friendship!

Each one of us has friends…some have few…some have many.

Friends touch our lives in one way or the other…and thus they add new colors to the palette of life…And like all colors make a picture colorful,each friend adds a special flavour…

Recounting some of them here…

One…who lights up your workplace…with his calm and helpful attitude…with a nice smile to light up the days you have too much work…

One…who you tease and by whom you get teased a lot…the major time of your meetings passes in pulling each other’s’ legs…

One…who you meet in the bus/train/signal…the encounter includes just a smile and a hi…

One…who is absolutely your best friend…anything and everything special that happens…the first one with whom you want to share it all with…

One…who has been your eternal company…be it shopping, outings, walks in the evening…even the maggi at 2 am…

One…who is practical and very sane…whom you turn to when you need some sound advice…

One…who speaks less…but is a great listener…

One…who has the most charming smile you have ever known…who can actually make the entire room light up with his smile…

One…who is the most innocent and childlike…at whom you laugh a lot…

One…who is the coolest person you have ever known…the one you know can tell you how to take it light however bleak the fight may be…

One…who can listen to all your stories and can tell his own…and enjoy every moment of it…

One…who epitomizes fun and excitement…the life of every party…the all-time gracious host…

One…who is a music or a sports or a novel freak…and will pull you with him to the match out on the grounds or the music concert somewhere or every bookshop you cross…

One…who has an exceptional talent in some field…be it singing, dancing, writing, playing guitar, swimming, badminton, sports champ, anything…and you really adore that…

One…who is super sweet…and adds a honeyed flavour to every situation…

One…who you think might be busy…so you don’t call him up…whereas at the other end, the idiot is thinking on the same lines…

One…whom you don’t hesitate to call even in the middle of the night if your heart is feeling super low…coz you know he’ll come to meet you as soon as he can without any harassing questions…

One…who has not had a chat with you since a long time…but you know you can call him up anytime…even now…and barring a few swear words in the beginning, have a heart-to-heart chat without any serious complaints…

One…who meets you in few and far between times…but you share your important decisions and views…intellectual buddies…

One…who is living very far away…but his memories come by often and fills your heart with nostalgia…who symbolizes the quote… “The good old times…”

One…with whom you can share an entire afternoon…without really talking much…just listening to some classy music (that you both love)…and feel that you had a great time…

One…who has taught you what passion means…who has gone beyond daily life troubles and duties to pursue his passion…

One…who has altered the principles of your life…who has affected you so deeply that your mind spells respect whenever his memory comes by…

One…who has taught you what it means to be happy…one who has made you feel alive and very full of life and love…

One…who has seen your tears…and not laughed at them…but sat beside you till you felt ok…and then taken you out for an ice-cream(or a drink(guys!))…

One…who has stood by you…when you were facing the darkest periods of your life…

One…who has been there…when you screwed up something really big really badly…and then also helped you clear all the mess and help you jump back…

One…who encourages you in your dreams…tells you that you can achieve them all…and promises to stay by your side whatever may happen…

One…who you know that you can trust with your life…no matter what…

One…who is living a life you dream of…and you hope to see yourself there too…and you are so proud of him…

One…whom you have not really said…but you wish to…that you love him a lot…you have shouted at him…even kicked him…but in your silent moods….you have absolutely loved him…

The list does not end here…I am sure each one of us can add to it…I request you to add to the above. Remember the quote “Friends are the family we choose for ourselves” :)And it’s a nice co-incidence…my colleague’s cell just rang… The ringtone says…“Kyun ki har ek friend zaroori hota hai!” :)

I Want to Disappear...

Life can be compared to a time piece. A rough analogy, one would say. Well, like a timepiece, life too has various periods. There are times which ring in happiness, some which bring sorrow, still some others chime love, and some are hours of pain...

There also comes a time in life when one feels a bit too out-of-the-place. When things look perfectly normal on the outside but the insides are facing restlessness. The times when you might have felt that it would be so wonderful if you could escape to some other place…This piece of writing is dedicated to that phase of life…

I feel like disappearing…

I feel like running away from here…

Without telling a soul…

And be free from any questions…

And the answers that should follow…

I want to get lost in some other world…

With just a wad of notes in my bag…

With a road to walk on…

Or may be a river to cross…

With flowers and blossoms…

With butterflies and poppies…

With the sun and rain…:)

I want to leave behind my home…

The daily routine…

The mundane life…

The day to day expectations…

The thousand questions…

The heart wrenching memories…

The mind numbing nostalgia…

The listless evenings…

The nights of sleeplessness…

The teary eyed mornings…

It’s not that I am afraid of life any more…

But I do need a break…

I want to get away and go to a new place…

A place where I have lost my way

But I have found myself.

A place where I have lost my inhibitions

But I have found what my heart says.

A place where I have lost all connectivity

But I have found the connection to myself.

I want to be with my inner self…

I want to know what my heart desires…

What it has been trying to say in a soft voice…

What it really wants to do and achieve…

Coz I have been crowding it

With what others expect of me…

With what others feel for me…

Somewhere I have lost myself…

Somehow I have forgotten to be mine own…

I want to get away from all the noise…

And listen to the symphony of my soul…

Surely there must be a place…

Where you can get lost and find yourself…

In that simple enlightening place…

I want to disappear…:)

Love ...Break Up...Suicide?!?!

I was browsing the net last evening. A news headline caught my attention “IIM Student commits suicide after being dumped by boyfriend on facebook”. It caught me totally unawares and I jolted in my seat. I clicked on the link ,went through the entire article and also searched all major news websites to get more of the story . It read “Malini Murmu, the victim, a first-year student at IIM, Bangalore and a native of Jamshedpur, Jharkhand committed suicide by hanging herself in her room. In a spurned love story, the couple broke their relationship after an argument. On Sunday, Sep 18, Malini found a status posted by her boyfriend on Facebook that read: "Feeling super cool today. Dumped my new ex-girlfriend. Happy independence day." The status depressed her and on Monday, she didn't attend the classes. Her classmates noticed it and went to her room and found the door locked following which they called the security guard, who broke the door. They found Malini hanging from the ceiling fan. Malini in a suicide note on left on her laptop wrote that she committed suicide after her boyfriend left her.”

A surge of emotions rose in me…anger, frustration, sorrow, helplessness and despair. Before they could get a tighter hold on me and have some serious negative influence, I decided to pen down what I was feeling. I want to put down two major points.

Firstly, the facebook status that the guy put up…Is that not a display of our fast means of communication? The mantra of modern age : Feel it, Express it…in a super fast way…share with everyone the moment it happens…say it aloud to the entire world. Everyone wants to share their lives with everyone out there…but some of them do it in a really condemnable way. They even want to share that they are feeling superb after dumping their girlfriends…without the slightest thought of what the “ex-girlfriend” would feel… evidence that emotions like sensitivity are fast losing their place in our modern fast-paced world…I know its not very logical but it made me feel may be those times were better when we did not have the means to communicate so quickly…at least such mishaps did not happen. People could not humiliate others in front of such a big community all around the world in such a short time! You needed time and a lot of influence to spread malign about anybody in your circle of friends and acquaintances. But now, everyone of us is ‘blessed’ with instant messaging and spreading out the word. So why not use( read misuse) it to our full capability…???!!!

The second point I felt was the absurdness of the extreme step taken by Malini…a series of questions stormed my brain. What was she really thinking when she took the extreme step? Was giving up her life the best way to take revenge? I do not wish to speak ill of a soul now gone…but certain questions refused to leave my head. Agreed, the break up would have caused immense sorrow and the facebook post a lot of humiliation, but what about all the love that her parents and siblings and friends must have showered on her in her 22 years of life? What about all the efforts she must have put in to reach IIM-B, one of the most prestigious institutions in India? What about the ambitions that she must have had? The dreams her parents must have seen? As we grow up, life does teach us to balance our emotions, doesn’t it? Did she not feel the need to reach out to somebody…her friends or anyone else? Has the value of life become so less that you can give it up for such an issue?

That’s not the way things get sorted. Or revenge is taken (as she wrote before hanging herself). Life has a purpose. And strangely, I got reminded of people out there who die for a noble cause…like our soldiers. And also of people who die because they don’t get the basic necessities of life…who die of starvation. It brought to my mind another point. We all tend to take the things we have for so much granted that we tend to forget their importance and our fortune to have them. An example : Each morning, we have our own problems to deal with. The thought of some country attacking us and killing us does not cross our mind. It is occupied with the tension of heavy traffic on the roads that day or something of that sort. That is because that has become a part of our life. That is why we can worry about traffic jams and low salary. The analogy can be applied in the above case too. The love and care of family and friends and good education had all become a way of life. So they were taken for granted and a break up could become a reason big enough for giving up LIFE!

It is not that our generation is too sensitive or too rash. We do understand what is right and wrong for us. But if some events in life cause frustration and sorrow, we need our friends and well-wishers to remind us of the good things life has given us. May be if Malini had reached out to some dear friend of hers, the sad mishap could have been averted. But sadly, she took to confining her feelings within herself…locking herself up in her own room.

My deepest condolences to her family and friends. May her soul rest in peace.

Mind And Heart

A young girl is in love. Her Prince Charming loves her too. Their love is blissful, peaceful and serene. But not all love stories have a happy ending. They know that they are close to that point in life is close to separation when they will have to separate. As she prepares herself to embrace the harsh destiny of life, she faces her fears and sadness. Her mind and heart pull her in opposite directions. It is a strange crossroad… when the heart is surrounded by its fears and the mind is making an attempt to handle them rationally.

Mind And Heart

My mind tells me its not wise to fall so deeply in love….

But deep inside, my heart wants to drown itself in this ocean….

My mind tells me not to make so many sweet memories,

But deep inside, my heart wants to live these moments as much as I can…

My mind tells me its not wise to long so much for you,

But deep inside, my heart wants to keep doing just that…

My mind tells me not to express my love so much to you,

But deep inside, my heart wants to pour out all its love on you…

My mind tells me its weird to keep missing you so much,

But deep inside, my heart knows that it can’t help doing that…

My mind tells me that sometimes, love comes in your life just to go away,

But deep inside, my heart wants to hold onto you…forever and ever…

My mind tells me that I should behave practically…the way you like me,

But deep inside, my heart wants to tell you I am just as emotional…

My mind tells me that I know I should learn to take it in my stride,

But deep inside, my heart cries every time I think of that…

My mind tells my heart that its ok, that all will be well,

But deep inside, my heart says that NO, its no going to be that easy…

My mind tells me that all this is a part of life,

But deep inside, my heart is very afraid of this part…

My mind tells me that life will become alright all over again,

But deep inside, my heart is mightily afraid of when that will happen…

My mind tells my eyes to try to hide my tears,

But deep inside, my heart sobs…sometimes uncontrollably…

My mind tells me not to let you know all this pain in my heart…

But deep inside, my heart wants to cry on your shoulders…

My mind tells me not to tell you that I love you more than my life,

But deep inside, my heart wants to shout out that to you…

You see…

Deep inside, I am just a normal girl…

And I am so very afraid of losing you…