When You Want To Let It All Go...

A piece of writing depicting a side of the times when life is feeling low.  When things are looking downhill and all hopes distant and dim...When many questions are unanswered...when sadness seems to become a constant companion...When a part of you wants to let it all go.

There are moments in life when you smile

But tears flow down your eyes...

All you do is let those tears slide down silently.

Wipe them without letting anyone notice...

You remind yourself that there are deadlines to meet and more things to be done...

You tell your heart to stay silent...and grow up.

You just want to let it all go

All the feelings

All the weakness

All the longing

Everything

You may wonder, why are there so many emotions bottled up inside?

You want a part of you to just go and never come back

You want a part of you to simply die...

When you are simply waiting for the hours to pass and the sun to set...

So that you can cuddle up in your room...away from the world.

When the evening comes, you again wait...

This time, for the night to pass...

You don’t want memories to keep attacking you.

You wonder which is worse...

The day ...which is packed with a list of chores to be done…where you are running to catch up with the many expectations life holds…

Or the night...which is passing slowly...and saddening you even more bringing the memories back...from which you want to run away...

You may not realize, your hands may fold themselves up in prayer in such nights...

Your soul is praying for some peace...

When staring at neither the stars nor the sun is exciting

You know that your heart is unhappy.

When everything around is almost the same as it was earlier...

Still not pleasant and fulfilling...

When there is a sea of people around

Still no company...the feeling of loneliness persists...

When you feel like giving it up all

Dreams seem too far...too distant...almost unimportant...

What is it that you are searching for...?

What is it that you want...?

What is it that can take away the glumness...?

What is it that life wants?

It is while living through these moments…realizations dawn. What can enliven your spirit and what saddens your heart. What your decisions and resolutions should be…If you can hold on when you want to let it all go, there surely will come a reason to hold on even longer. As they say, the darkest hour is just before the dawn. The answers come right after the seemingly unending wait. So, when you want to let it all go, hold on. It will be worth it.

P.S. The above is a work of fiction blended with imagination. :) A cheerful post is on the way. :)