Monday, December 12, 2011

She Is Saying She's Got To Go...


Suddenly,

She is leaving...

She is waving a goodbye...

She is saying she's got to go...


My heart is panicking...

My breathing is slowing down...

My world is sinking...

My soul is breaking down...


Memories are flooding my mind..

They are drowning me...

I wish somebody would help me...

Oh, please, come and save me...


The beautiful way she smiled...

The pretty way she looked into my eyes...

The warm way she hugged me...

The delicate way she held my hand…


But now,

She is leaving...

She is waving a goodbye...

She is saying she's got to go...


I wear a smile on my face

For the whole world to see...

When they ask me how I am,

I reply I am doing good...


Deep in the nights, when I'm alone

My tears slide down...

My heart cries inconsolably...

My soul longs for her...


I keep my senses the whole day

And cry myself to sleep every night..

I pray fervently to God

To help me survive this loneliness...


With her, a lot has gone...


The charm that was there in life...

The happiness with which my heart lived...

The faith I had in goodness of life...

The desire to achieve and excel...

The fire to reach out...

The free spirit inside me...


And all that stays with me...


The memories of moments spent together...

The emptiness of evenings...

The sadness and despair...

The fear of what might happen next..

The hidden tears...

The silent pangs of pain...


Life is feeling really empty…

She is leaving...

She is waving a goodbye...

She is saying she's got to go...

P.S. The above is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to real life incidents is co-incidental.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Darkness and Sunshine

Life is not all about sunshine and happiness...it’s also about the darkness and sorrow.

It’s about being with people who mock at your dreams...taunting that you can’t do what you really want to do.

It’s about friends who can be worse than enemies...hitting exactly where they know it will hurt the most.

It’s also about being cheated...in a way you never expected.

It’s also about being left alone in a vast desert...where all you can see in every direction is the sinking sand and the blazing sun....


It’s about being humiliated for a petty mistake you made unintentionally, it being magnified to an extent too far.

It’s about being punished for a wrong you did not even commit.

It’s about being asked to prove your mettle to the people who believed in you...the ones who grew up with you....in age and in life.

It’s about fighting with darkness for so long that you slowly start losing hope of light.


It’s about your nursing your heart which has been broken into a thousand pieces and tossed along mercilessly...

It’s about bearing the pain of picking up those broken pieces and trying to make a whole again.

It’s about those long, seemingly endless, hours of fear and pain.

It’s about trying to forget the wounds inflicted...when they keep reappearing time and again.


It’s about being madly in love with a person and knowing that they cannot be yours.

It’s about the burning sensation that comes when you have to talk to them almost every day...coz there is no way you can avoid it.

It’s about realizing that love does not always receive love...and that this too is a way of life

It’s about understanding the fact that it takes a lot to be lucky in love.


It’s about seeing a group of young jolly people laughing and enjoying...and thinking when was the last time you felt so.

It’s about the tears which stay hidden in those eyes and behind those smiles, to avoid being misunderstood or ridiculed by the world.

It’s about them rolling down unconsciously and unstoppably when you are alone in the dead of the night.

It’s about feeling lost and not knowing where to ask for the right path.


It’s about feeling the sands of time slip through your hands when you try to hold tightly on to it...

It’s about seeing a part of your cherished dream die every day...right in front of your eyes...

It’s about knowing that there are things about which you can’t do much...

It’s about dying a slow death...everyday...and still not dying.


But then...

It’s about believing in your dreams even if nobody else does.

And to keep at them with faith and try to do all that you can.


It’s about bearing up with everyone who does not believe in you and

Seize a chance from life to prove that you are what you want to be.


It’s about picking the broken shards and nursing your heart back to life.

It’s about becoming stronger at will and softer at heart together.


It’s about finding affection in other forms...like a new-born’s smile and a kid's hug.

It’s about learning to believe that time is the best healer.


It’s about going out of one's way and making someone else smile...and feeling satisfied.

It’s about doing something for someone who cannot repay you back in money.


It’s about trying every time after you fall. May be a little break and some rest.

And thus carve a new path. It's understanding that there are no readymade guidelines.


It’s about praying deeply to the Almighty above.

It’s about believing that there is someone looking over you…and after you.


It’s about the small streak of light behind those dark clouds...however far it may be.

It’s about living with a hope alive in your heart...however small it may be.


P.S.: The above is a work of pure fiction and any resemblance to real situations is purely co-incidental :)

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Dear Brain...

A young person, much like you and me, who has had a tough time and is feeling troubled decides to write to his own brain telling it the troubles of over-thinking and asking it to calm down!!!

Dear Brain,

I have been trying to explain you this since some time. But you don’t seem to be in a mood to listen to me at all! (Talk about being stubborn! ;-)) Every day since some weeks, I have been trying to confront you and explain some important things. But all you do is turn your back to me and stare in the opposite direction and act as if you are deaf!!! Now the water has gone much above the danger level (and I am really sinking), that is why I have decided to pen down all that you need to understand.

So let us get down to business crisply. You really need to understand that you have been interfering too much in all my matters. I know your job is to think, analyse, give orders to other body parts and make sure that everything is working properly. But dude, you are overworking the last few weeks…

You are thinking too much…so much that my heart is facing a serious problem. You are making it beat at a pace too rapid, causing anxiety. You are analysing too much…so much so that it is becoming a big obstacle to my sleeping hours. You are behaving like those rash teenagers on the floor above my apartment who play loud music right in the dead of the silence of the night. You are nagging me a lot lately…so much so that you could compete with Mrs. Sharma at it. (Imagine that now!) You are acting like the mother-in-law of the 1940’s…who made their daughters-in-law reduce to tears at the smallest mistakes!!!

So my dear brain, please stop behaving this way. We used to be good buddies amigo…:) I remember that you did not keep chattering all the time then. These days, you are constantly grinding the wheels too hard…weighing each emotion and stream of thought again and again…thinking about every word that my mouth utters…analysing every word that falls on my ears…even all the dreams that I get…DUDE…give it a break!

As your good friend, I really want to tell you something. I understand that you cannot help thinking about everything under the sun including life, ambition, love, passion, work, success, failure and death. All I want to say is that it would be so much better and easier if you think about all these things one at a time. And take it a bit lightly…yeah, you can give that a try, right? Not too hard I guess :)

Please do get some relaxation. Take a short holiday somewhere if you want to. But come back soon…I can’t do without you!

Loads of love and care (I know that sounds cheesy but bear with that!)

Yours truly! :)