ITS NOT WHAT AROUND YOU…ITS WHAT INSIDE THAT MATTERS…

My friends are talking jovially around me…any other day, I would have joined them…but today its the loneliness inside me that matters…

They are discussing about the joy of being together…any other day, I would have added to it…but today, it’s the sadness in me that matters…

They are getting ready for a huge party tonight…any other day, I would have jumped into the fun fiesta eagerly… but today, It’s the space that I need for myself that matters…

I look at my table…any other day, I see there are a hundred things that need to be done...but today, it’s the gloom in me that matters…

I go out of the room…I look at the sky...any other day, I appreciate its marvelous black color…but today, it’s the blues inside me that matters…

The wind is blowing smoothly ...any other day, I love the wind easing and playing with me…but today, it’s the uneasiness inside me that matters…

The moon is shining brightly…any other day, it would have made me light up…but today it’s the darkness inside me that matters…

I see a kid playing around…I go n cuddle her...but I don’t take her in my arms as I always do…it’s the kid in me that’s crying that matters…

I go out for some work…any other day, I would be cautious about the heavy traffic and loud horns, but today it’s the noise in my heart that matters…

I come back the same path…any other day, I love to see the flowers that grow on the sidewalk…but today it’s the dried leaf of a lost memory that matters…

My cell rings…its my sister…any other day, I would have begun chirping to her…but today it’s the silence in me that matters…

After the talk, I cut the phone call…any other day, I would have been happy that she had called…but today, it’s the glumness in me that matters…

My favorite song has begun playing in the music player…any other day, it would have got me tapping my feet…but today, it’s the lack of rhythm inside me that matters…

I chance upon my diary which I had written when I was younger…any other day, I would have re-read it totally again…but today, it’s the lack of curiosity that matters…

I see my notepad…any other day, I d love to pen down all that I feel…but today, my words have frozen…that’s what matters…

Its late in the night…any other day, I would cuddle up comfortably in my blanket and sleep…but today, it’s the sleeplessness that matters…

The heartache that is inside...that’s what paining the most…

That’s what matters the most…

Its not what around me… Its what inside that matters the most…